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I know jealousy can be a deadly poison in a relationship, but I have grown a jealousy that might not go away that easily. I’m jealous with the freedom my boyfriend is getting. Since we are living separately now, (long story, don’t want to go there) he’s been going out with friends whenever he gets a chance, with work and his financial issues he rarely sees us. I, on the other hand, obviously has little Fiona to take care of. I’m not regretful of having a baby too early in my life and I’m not asking for financial support from him, but I just wish he’s aware that I feel neglected.

I don’t need his money, I need his presence, his support in every aspect, damn him. Every time I tell him that, he starts off with him having problems with his family and all that. I want his sympathy but in the end I’m the one sympathizing with him and trying to understand his situation.

My family has been nagging me about being responsible with my new family and with all that is happening now, I realize I’m the only one working my ass off to make this family work.

The movie authorities here are planning to ban the showing of the movie, The Da Vinci Code. Damn I hope they won’t ban it, I’ve been waiting for the movie since I saw the teaser last year. I have already read the book a long time ago and it is a very well written novel that I think will be cool to see on the big screen. The prequel is so more adventure-filled but the Da Vinci Code theme is definitely a mind opener.

I saw the trailer awhile ago and it really looks good. MTRCB claims it is the most perverted type of movie but I honestly don’t see anything wrong with the story of the movie. So maybe it says things that the Catholic church disagrees to, we have to realize though that it was just a fictional novel and that any beliefs should be respected no matter how “perverted” they can get.

I wish they would allow the showing of the Davinci Code… I can’t wait to watch it!

I’m back! And I’m not alone… After 9 months of waiting, 10 hours of labor, 2 shots of pain killers, and 8 stitches… I’d like you all to meet my beautiful little darling — Ashley Fiona

I was having continuous fits of stomach aches last March 8 and all throughout the afternoon and evening, it was becoming worse and worse. The doctor knew tonight was the night. It was a scary and painful experience. She was born last March 9, 2006 1:15 AM (that’s +8H from GMT) weighing 3.3 kg. and when I heard her cry, the pain, the agony and exhaustion was all worth it. It felt great to hear her for the first time, to look at her for the first time and to finally hold her in my arms after having her in my tummy for a long time.

I know I have a lot to learn about being a mom and how to properly take care of my baby and I know it’s going to be hard but I also know that I’m going to cherish every second I spend with this dumpling. I’m a mom!

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I will be hybernating until further notice. I have not yet scanned the ultra sound results and will not be able to do so because I’ll be staying in the maternity clinic for the next few days… I will not be able to read any emails, private messages, or anything like that for a few days or even weeks (depending on my condition and the baby’s condition as well).

For the mean time, take care everyone! I shall come back as soon as I could. Peace!

Do You Know That What You’re Doing is Illegal?!?!

That’s the English translation of what the chubby hot-headed man from NBI asked one of my co-workers last night. And to what was he pertaining to? P-O-R-N

But we really aren’t making any of those stuff and we definitely don’t star on any of those. We just offer web designing/developing services to clients. we don’t own any sex dens in here with cameras and sex toys and all those crap. You won’t find any webcams and we don’t even have messengers for chrissakes.

Maybe a few people here design porn sites for clients but I really don’t care what others work on as long as I’m doing my work right and my job revolves around psychics, cars and article reviewing. I don’t want to touch those smut stuff especially while I’m pregnant.

I was able to go home early yesterday because of the raid (they allowed the pregnant woman to go home early to avoid the risk of going in labor), but I can’t help feeling sorry for my co-workers who I know are innocent but were still detained until late last night. I’m really annoyed about how the NBI treated me and my co-workers (especially after I was allowed to leave) and I’m more pissed with our management. I still have stuff against them but that’s a different issue.