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It’s pretty obvious that I have been neglecting my blog again, not just that but work and everything else in my life! Gad. What have I been up to anyway? Simple, I was trying to forget and got sucked into a certain app in Facebook.

But I’m back for real and I hope my clients aren’t pissed at me, I’m really sorry, yes I have piles of work to do and I solemnly swear I’d finish them this week (woot motivated!).

Anyhow, I was working on a list of things I want to attain/achieve/accomplish/whatever for this week/month/year, and one of them was to post an entry already! *sigh* so here it is already. heh

Although it is futile to find a fix to my brain damage, I really would like to fix my life and I know I have my old friends and my new found friends to help, *loads gun* right guys?

Mark your calendars friends, both bands are coming here and are having concerts in the same week. Good luck to those who want to watch both. I will be going to both, even if I have to slave off for the tickets, or even if I have to kill just to get to watch them. I guess I have to be sex slave of sorts for 2 weeks to get the tickets, I hope not. I want to see Adam and Brandon!!! *googly eyes*

Someone have better give me a good contest idea, make that two. I have goodies to give away.

Maroon 5
Araneta Coliseum, March 5, 2008

Incubus
Araneta Coliseum, March 9, 2008

Ah another year has gone, and finally I have a post. A long over-due one. I noticed my blog is rotting and infested with flies but what the hey, I was too preoccupied with my loneliness and wallowing, and when I’m in a good mood, I was busy taking advantage of the alone-time and catching up on the tv-series and movies (in DVD) I haven’t watched. And of course my laziness kicks in that I couldn’t bring myself to write something.

Anyhow, I am back and let’s see… I didn’t want to enumerate the best points of this blog for the year 2007, nor do I want to make a summary of posts for the whole year. I thought I’d thank the online people who made 2007 special and memorable but the list is uber long and I’d most likely forget several people. It’ll be like in the Academy night and I’m saying my message after receiving the award, only I don’t know what I’ve won and I’m probably holding a Barrel Man instead of Oscar. But I still want to say thank you to all of you guys, who constantly visit my blog to see what madness and mayhem I’ve been up to. Thank you for those who have crossed my path last year and has made a mark in my life. Whether it was a hickey or a whip slash, I don’t care! I am grateful for newly found friends and if I ever gained enemies last year, sana kunin na kayo para wala na akong kaaway, nyahaha… Seriously, thank you to each and everyone for making 2007 colorful.

I have been trying to hold on for the last 10 hours.

I never asked for anything this Christmas save for me to find peace of mind. Why did it have to happen now? Is this my Christmas gift? Did I deserve this? Did I fucking deserve all this shit? What did I ever do to you to put me so far up and then drop me like a bomb? Why didn’t you just let them just shoot me in the head before trying to violate me, at least I won’t be screaming and fighting. At least I won’t have the memory of their fuck ugly faces etched in my brain before they got caught.

And you, the last thing I needed was to be shot down by you. I know you’re already miserable but I never wanted us to be miserable. I needed you. I was calling for you but you’re not there. And I can’t blame you for not wanting me now. I don’t know if I could ever look at myself in the mirror. But why bury me deeper in the shit I have been trying to get out of?

I was helping my mom get out the Christmas decors last Sunday for the Christmas tree. It’s the only thing left to be set up for the holidays in our home in Pque. Although can someone help me with this question, because this is mind boggling for me…