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In par with my list of wants, exactly a month ago, I had my tattoo.

It’s been a month since I had my tattoo. Something that so far my parents will still kill me for. They really are against getting tattoos and me being the bah bah black sheep, I got one last month.

Meh. I really wanted to get a tattoo long long time ago but I never saw myself actually getting one in this lifetime as you might not be aware, I am a bit scared of needles and getting pricked. But I got one, and the craving to get another and another has to be stopped before I cover myself with ink.

I was actually fighting an urge to get something tribal, I wanted a kanji of my name. But I forgot to bring my design and ended up getting what I have now. And why of all designs I had to choose a heart? A reminder to myself that I can be foolish at times, I can be strong and I can face my fears. That amidst the knowledge of the pain I would have to endure, I still went through it and got the tattoo because I wanted it.

Opposed to what I promised in one of my previous posts, I was not able to publish my drafts for reasons I’d like to smack myself with. Seriously, I am having a hard time writing or publishing these past few weeks that I am a bit surprised I have not stabbed a pair scissors through my neck.

Anyways, since I am evading talks about my personal life nowadays, and writer’s block and procrastination have not been helpful either, we move on to topics I’m used to…

If there’s one thing you should never do when you have friends visiting and drinking at your own house, it’s to never teach your friends how to operate your camera. Never leave your computer on too!

I hate you guys so much, I made this my wallpaper for the week. LOL

Single. Ah yes, that word some people love to hate, and some others hate to love… Do you wanna be single? Are you single? Are you happy?

Some of my friends don’t seem to like being single at all. Some despise the idea of being single especially around February and remain entangled in relationships that never seem to help them grow as an individual and in fact continues to drag them down in the long run. Some jump from one relationship to the other (ouch?), bringing along baggages that affect the present, never giving themselves enough time to heal.

Personally? I don’t wanna be single for long. It’ll be hypocritical to say otherwise. I want to be held close in someone’s arms and feel loved, as in really loved, and to love in return. I want to take care of someone, be his one and only, and claim him as mine and mine alone. It sounds like I am in love with falling in love right? Whatever. But alas I have no one but myself. It’s been months since I’ve been held even if it seems like it was shrouded with superficial feelings. And it’s been years since I felt really loved.

Ole! Ole! Ole! Ole! Ok enough Ole-ing, it only reminds me of Nigel Gruff and The Replacements and that is not my point here!

Ok first off, I’d like to apologize for not being able to bloghop and visit the sites of people who have been visiting me, I have been preoccupied with… well… hell and healing.

Second, I will be kind of busy on the next few days but I’ll be publishing one or two posts per day just to empty out all the damned drafts I have on my dashboard. One of which is this. I have 15 drafts for chrissake! This was suppose to be published some 2 weeks ago but I was all uninspired and my brain was out of town that I wasn’t able to finish it, just as much as I left everything unfinished.

And finally, Entre! See that featured Entre thingie on my sidebar on the right, right over there? Yeah that cute thing that says drop yours. It’s not asking you to drop your pants or anything, it’s like when you’re in business. You meet someone new, you hand then a business card to “grease the gears of businesses”. Yeah that’s pretty much the same as Entrecard. It revolutionized Internet networking and advertising.