I am not the girl you think I am….
I am an actress living my life as if I was on stage… I portray the character of a bitch, a radical, an extremist, an anarchist, an agnostic, an antagonist… a person without a heart, without a soul… a person who is sick of routine, sick of conformity, sick of conventions…
I am someone who pretends to be happy… someone who pretends to be strong… Yes maybe in some ways, I am what you perceive to be but I am not the girl you entirely think I am…
I am sensitive, pained, vulnerable, fearful and shy…
I wear a mask of indifference… a mask so tight that not even I am capable of taking off… a mask so powerful, I fear the removal of it…
Yes, I fear… I do have fears…
I fear blood especially mine, even if I am willing to shed it for a cause… I fear death, although I shamelessly face it and even run after it… I fear pain and rejection… I fear risks and I fear the outcomes of my actions… I fear betrayal… I fear loss… I fear I would not be loved…
