I know jealousy can be a deadly poison in a relationship, but I have grown a jealousy that might not go away that easily. I’m jealous with the freedom my boyfriend is getting. Since we are living separately now, (long story, don’t want to go there) he’s been going out with friends whenever he gets a chance, with work and his financial issues he rarely sees us. I, on the other hand, obviously has little Fiona to take care of. I’m not regretful of having a baby too early in my life and I’m not asking for financial support from him, but I just wish he’s aware that I feel neglected.
I don’t need his money, I need his presence, his support in every aspect, damn him. Every time I tell him that, he starts off with him having problems with his family and all that. I want his sympathy but in the end I’m the one sympathizing with him and trying to understand his situation.
My family has been nagging me about being responsible with my new family and with all that is happening now, I realize I’m the only one working my ass off to make this family work.
