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I wasn’t able to finish this post last night, I was too tired to check whether I typed it properly so I just saved it in my drafts. But here it is…

Aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggghhhh it hurts like hell! Soon after heading out of the gym, I met up with anya ken. And we went to a popular sports arena in our city. I tried out boxing today for the first time, and for one reason and one reason alone, because I was dragged to it (curses kennots! curses!). I knew I wasn’t there to just watch but I didn’t expect to be trained (more like toyed) like that on my first day. My muscles are stiff from working in the gym. And if that wasn’t bad enough, for the fun of it, we had a mock fight (I think the boys there seldom have female visitors), I was paired to a 20-year-old guy who was so excited to beat someone up that he forgot he was sparring a girl. It was just for fun but it turned out much more painful to be just a game. I’m badly bruised. I have purple spots forming on my upper arms right now. I can’t fold my arms that much. So I shall not return to the ring again anytime soon.

Some have been asking me where joiz.be went to and so here is the long story of how my domain made a magical disappearing act.

Joiz.be disappearance started at the night of December 28. Hosting problem? Unpaid dues? Hacked? Joiz’s mood swings?

No the problem wasn’t my hosting. My hosting has been very kind to me during the holidays, no big downtimes whatsoever. I wasn’t hacked either (who hacks personal blogs?). It’s the holidays and although I am tired from all the holiday fuzz, I was not having major mood swings that would make me delete everything I’ve made on my website. So what caused the hullabaloo? The domain name itself.

It was supposed to be renewed before December 27. The domain name has been sponsored just before the date (thankfully since I had PayPal problems) and I thought everything was cleared and clean about the renewal. It went down on December 28, I thought it was just a minor hosting downtime. So come December 29 morning, the website was still down, I got worried.

Ako ay Pilipino, ako ay Pilipino
Taas noo kahit kanino
Pilipinong totoo

Isang daang porsyento akong Pilipino. Ipinagmamalaki ko yun. Saan ka makakakita ng sobrang saganang likas na yaman at sobrang makulay na buhay kundi dito sa Pilipinas. Sikat tayo dahil sa mga magagandang tanawin natin, mula sa mga matataas na bundok, malalawak na disyerto, saganang kakahuyan, malalalim na mga kagaratan… Ang pagkain, kultura, produkto… melting pot tayo ng mga kultura ng iba’t ibang nayon, lalawigan at ibang bansa…

Sa kahit anong parte ng mundo may pinoy na naroon. At kung sakaling mawala ang mga pinoy, malamang hihinto ang buong mundo. Mawawala ang mga domestic helpers na nagkakandaugagang alagaan ang ibang pamilya para lang mabuhay ang pamilya sa ating bansa, mawawala ang mga professionals na marami nang na-contribute sa mga matataas at magagarang kumpanya ng mga foreigners. Mawawala ang mga talented nating singers, dancers, at actors na nagbibigay entertainment sa buong mundo.

Pero bakit ganun, tayo-tayo na lang, nagkakalokohan pa. Tayo tayo na lang, nagkakasiraan pa, nagpapayabangan, naggagaguhan, nagkakalokohan. Ganito na ba talaga kalala ang mga pinoy? Sariling atin nagkakalasunan? Anong petsa na?! Crab mentality parin ba tayo hanggang ngayon?

I’m sorry I have “censored” this to be read only by Filipinos. It’s just that I couldn’t release all these bitchin’ if I didn’t use my native language.

Punyeta ka. Akala mo kung sinong magaling. Sawa na akong kausapin ka, ang hirap sayo nakikipagkaibigan lang feeling mo naman patay na patay na ako sayo. Sige fine! Binibiro ka namin ni ella na crush ka namin. Hindi mo pa ba kami kilala? Mga dakilang atribida? Eh gago ka pala, sino naman magkakagusto sayo? May itsura ka nga, pero feeling mo naman hari ka ng mundo.

Oo apektado ako, tinuring turing mong kaibigan, basura ang tingin sayo. Yun ang pagkakamali ko eh, ang ituring kang kaibigan. User ka lang, user ka f*ck. Grabe ang ganda ng hirit mo sa conference natin nung isang araw, “Eh bat pa natin kailangan maghanap ng lugar para sa birthday party ko, e pwede naman sa pad ni joi” Pad pad ka dyan, gusto mo paduguin ko ilong mo.

Eto pa! Nagtext kaw raw kay Ella, tinatanong mo pa kung gaano kalaki ang unit ko? Kakasya ba kako kayo ng mga friends mo sa Makati. Hoy kupal, yung sinabi mong iinvadin nyo bahay ko, subukan mo lang. Feeling mo naman papapasukin kita at ang mga kaibigan mong mukhang mga adik? E kung ihulog kita sa mula sa floor namin, magandang birthday yun diba!

Ok, for starters, that title is not a typo and I’m not pointing to anyone as stupid. It’s French for stupid day. I’m having a very bad day and everything is… well… stupid.

Priorites, priorites, priorites…

I’ve had it with it. Since day 1, I’ve been nagged over and over that I can’t have the things I used to have; I can’t spend my money on myself anymore, I have responsibilities and those responsibilities should come first. I had to give up my night life, give up partying, give up my youth entirely. And what do I get in return? Right now, absolutely nothing. Noone has the same priorities that I have. Noone has the same responsibilities I got. Noone understands what I feel. I can only depend on myself and it sucks big time.

Les menteurs vont a l’enfer

How many times do I have to say things over and over? I hate it when promises are broken. I’ve had it up to here from forgiving and forgiving repeated sins. Pregnant or not, I don’t want to be treated as a fool, I’ve had enough already!

Cela atait une plaisanterie stupide