I can’t believe what i just heard
Could it be true?
Are you the girl I thought I knew?
The one who promised me her love..
Where did it go?
Does anybody ever know?
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again, oh no
I just can’t let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again, oh no
Tonight I’ll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I’ll pretend to let you go
And were you ever what you seemed
Or was I a fool who fell in love with her own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you’d never say
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again, oh no
I just can’t let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again, oh no
Tonight I’ll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I’ll pretend to
Finally put it all behind me
wake and find that I have found a new life
I find myself staring into nothingness wishing you were here
Looking for answers to questions in my mind, answers that I fear
Like where are you now? What you doing? And who’s holding you?
Is there someone new? Does she love you the way I do?And then in spite, I turn my head and wipe the tears away
for I don’t know why you do this, why can’t I make you stay
I’m lost, confused and I don’t know what I should do
I gave you my heart and I think you just left it somewhere too
Could it be that I’m foolish and stupid, could it be that I’m blind
Tell me if you let me look inside your heart, would it be me I would find?
Oh these silly questions, I know I shouldn’t ask anymore, I know it’s not right
for I should have known the answers when you didn’t showed up that night
You didn’t know how painful that was for me, I guess you won’t care
And I know I shouldn’t hope anymore, fate just has not been so fair
I admit I want to kiss you one last time, just to show you what I feel
But I guess now, I don’t have that right, it’s a reality I should deal
I am sore beyond explanation and I really couldn’t go online but thanks to my friend’s patience to type this for me so early in the morning (patience too to allow me to order him around how to publish this), his notebook and to wifi, I have a chance to share to you my recent experience.
What really happened is that I didn’t have a stroke perse, I suffered from what my doctor called a TIA, it is very much like the stroke we know but unlike it, the symptoms go away hence I thought these were just due to fatigue. What scared me is the thought that these attacks could have signaled a real stroke. Let’s not go into details since I’m still to tired to add more.
At a young age I never thought I would experience such crap. I keep asking myself, I’ve gone through hell in the past, why does this have to happen to me again? I wanted to curse someone, something, even myself just to let this angst out.
Natatakot ako, sobrang balisa at sobrang nagwawala ang utak ko na umatras na ako sa mangyayari bukas ng umaga. Takot ako sa kahit anong opera, mapa laser man ito o ano pa. Dahil narin siguro di ako sanay sa hospital (kahit suki na nila ako dati pa, di talaga ako natutuwa pag ako ang pasyente).
Kabado ako dahil maliit pa naman ang anak ko para maintindihan kung anong mangyayari (isang kiss at hug for mommy, solb na sana kaso gets kaya nya?) at ung isang taong gusto kong karamay habang mangyayari ito hindi ko macontact. Takot akong tawagan sya, dahil di ko rin alam ang sasabihin sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaksyon nya. Hindi ko alam kung may pakialam sya. Punyemas. Kabado na nga ako, lalo pa akong kabadong i-approach sya. Teka para naman akong mamamatay nito. Wag nyo isipin yan parang awa nyo na, wag. May namatay na ba ng dahil sa laser surgery? Kung meron amf wag nyo narin sagautin ang tanong ko!
Duwag kasi ako pag dating sa mga medical na bagay. Kaya nga di ako nagdoctor o nagnurse o medical tech. Di kinakaya ng sikmura ko ang mga operasyon na napapanood ko lang sa rescue 911 nung dati, what more pa pag totohanan na. Umatras nga ako dati sa reconstructive surgery na gusto ipagawa ni mama sa isang parte ng katawan ko. Tipong andun na kami sa hospital, ako na susunod, sa tagal ng pag-iintay ko, ang dami ko na tuloy naisip biglang umatras ako. Sayang edi sana perpekto na ako ngayon (ano daw?!?!)
Other people may still be busy with their Harry Potter and the Deathly Harrows book, others might still have a hangover with the Harry Potter 5 movie, or even the Transformer movie (I am bitter, you hear that J, bitter! Madaya ka talaga). I, on the other hand, am excited with the upcoming Simpson movie. The trailer was just too funny especially the part about spidey pig! (oh gosh, look for that trailer if you haven’t seen it, it’s just too funny and I’m just too shallow when I watched it) And I am giddy about watching it in the cinemas if I get a chance. Let’s enumerate some of the things I’ve had interest on relating to the Simpsons.
Simpsons Statuettes
I’ve liked the Simpsons cartoons since I was in elementary and we used to save up to buy Simpsons statuettes. These are original toy figures from the mall (toy stores) that would probably be collectibles if we didn’t play with them and actually lose them in the process. I do remember playing with toy figurines of Homer and Bart and maggi (I have got to look for that Maggi toy) and his skateboard a long time ago. Bart’s skateboard rolled into a canal and Mark (my kababata who owns the toy figures) really got pissed at himself for not being able to do anything about it
