…my husband can give me a castle as home. Very much like this, please?
Colleen showed me this link and the first thing that came to mind was “oOoOoOoh fully furnished dungeon! I want that” 
So if anyone out there has $15 million lying around and wants a wife. Buy me that castle and call me
I haven’t had decent sleep for the last 52 hours. I am cranky, quick tempered, obnoxious in some ways, depressed and just a few nicks away from being suicidal…
This is no computer I’m typing on.
It is a still pond, having been reflected upon.
It rains outside, cold and silently,
and inside me someone wants to drown.
I really have no plans of killing myself. I don’t overdose, not slit skins nor jump buildings. I am already physically numb that I think anything I do to my body would do nothing to get my mind off the pain inside. I am bitter. Bitter like the coffee I have just gulped (I forgot to put sugar again). My eyes have gone dry and there doesn’t seem to be a reason to cry. Should I cry for you? If I cry, my tears may be just dust.
I haven’t sleep because of work, it has been my excuse for not looking for you, for not bothering you, but I think of you and you’ve never left my mind. And that is what I fear. I fear that you are just a dream and so I avoid sleep for I don’t want this dream to end. But what I fear most is that if I sleep… I may never wake up again.
I am confused like hell today.
What’s so confusing about that? You can’t break your heart if you’re not in love. But you could be in love and not heartbroken… that means you’re content. If you are feeling confused, in love and heart broken, then may be you aren’t content?
I knew that was coming, and to answer that, I am longing to be content. I am in love and a bit heart broken. I want to find contentment also.
I will act now. I will act now. I will act now. Henceforth, I will repeat these words each hour, each day, everyday, until the words become as much a habit as my breathing, and the action which follows becomes as instinctive as the blinking of my eyelids. With these words I can condition my mind to perform every action necessary for my success. I will act now. I will repeat these words again and again and again. I will walk where failures fear to walk. I will work when failures seek rest. I will act now for now is all I have. Tomorrow is the day reserved for the labor of the lazy. I am not lazy. Tomorrow is the day when the failure will succeed. I am not a failure. I will act now. Success will not wait. If I delay, success will become wed to another and lost to me forever. This is the time. This is the place. I am the person.
-Og Mandino
Awww 
can I have my penguin too?
