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A lot of people ask this question to themselves, my friends ask me the same whenever they’re depressed with their love life situations. The same question runs through my mind whenever I face my own reality.

How indeed do you let go of someone you never had? Someone who has unconsciously become a part of your world, someone you couldn’t eat without, sleep without, dream without, breathe without, live without. Someone who unconsciously attached themselves to you but you know could never become fully yours.

I have been asking this same question to myself for the past relationships I’ve been through and I still haven’t found a surefire, painless, easy-go answer to it. And getting stuck in a situation similar to mine is hard, it’s like dying everyday of your life. There is no easy way to get out of love and you’d have to be freaking heartless to avoid falling in love entirely. I’m a fool. A stupid romantic fool.

Ah, I’m mumbling once again and don’t know how to end.

1. In a street there are five houses, painted five
different colours.
2. In each house lives a person of different
nationality
3. These five homeowners each drink a different kind
of beverage, smoke different brand of cigar and keep a
different pet.

THE QUESTION: WHO OWNS THE FISH?

HINTS

1. The Brit lives in a red house.
2. The Swede keeps dogs as pets.
3. The Dane drinks tea.
4. The Green house is next to, and on the left of the
White house.
5. The owner of the Green house drinks coffee.
6. The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds.
7. The owner of the Yellow house smokes Dunhill.
8. The man living in the centre house drinks milk.
9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10. The man who smokes Blends lives next to the one
who keeps cats.
11. The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who
smokes Dunhill.
12. The man who smokes Blue Master drinks beer.
13. The German smokes Prince.
14. The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15. The man who smokes Blends has a neighbour who
drinks water.

People say it’s only natural
Being hurt, being the fool again
And that I’d be free and loved
But tell me when, tell me whenHow do I go on, pretend nothing’s changed
when I’m already dying inside
you left a scar in my heart, you killed my soul,
you’ve burned a mark on my mind

I’d be a hypocrite if I didn’t admit to being conscious about my weight. Give me a break will ya, I need to look and feel great. And lately I don’t on both accounts at all.

I eat enough (but my mom says I eat too much, ugh), running around and trying to keep up with a baby queen is starving work. Trying to make a living online is brain tiring, trying to fit my usual routine in one day is exhausting. Want to hear more excuses?

I am such a homebody and a bedroom girl at that. If only I could stay in bed for the whole day, I would.

Even before I got pregnant, I’m the narcoleptic insomiac in the family. WTF? What I mean is whenever I get too comfortable in a chair or bed, I fall asleep quick (The insomiac part is very evident, I don’t sleep on the usual time) who doesn’t love sleep anyway?

Working from home has its ups and downs. The advantage is I can work whenever I want and I don’t worry about slacking off because everyone knows I’m a workaholic and I stress when there’s work to be done. The downside is I don’t get the workout I need, even with a 1 year old daughter to attend to, it just doesn’t feel like a workout.

Just before Easter, I decided to review everything about my website and evidently, I’ve been busy. I didn’t just do a quick fix on the blog, I decided to start with a clean slate. I actually moved the other posts into a different place so I can pick around which posts need refining, moving, deleting, etc. There are also some posts I find stupid now, I are stupid sometimes noh?
I changed my template again (I swear I’ll make this last longer) and this time, my site sure looks girly. I like it and I made the design in one sitting. The coding took longer being a full time nanny now -groan- it’s hard without external help.

The template is still in test mode, I’m not sure if there would be any surprises in some nook and cranny I haven’t noticed. And if there’s any that you’d find, please report them in this post please?
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